Not sure what to do with my life now. So much time has past. I've been thinking about joining the Army. Shit with the way the economy is now, they seem to be the only organization that is offering me life long stability. That sounds good, but what about my children. The Army is unpredictable, although the benefits are endless. Paid education plus health care and terrific retirement plans.
I feel overwelmed with the need to DO something with my life before he gets out of prison. I can't believe that after all this time he is still on my mind. Maybe is more fear than anything but still..will he ever be out of my thoughts?
I'm not a stupid person, I can pretty much do anything. Maybe graphic design. I'm good with computers and love art. I'm great with people. (that sounds so redundant) Good with people, I couldn't even detect a Bi-polar maniac. The worst part of that is that I was in love with him. Anyhow, in a work setting a great with people.
(sigh) who am I kidding, I'm a 29 year old single mother just now starting over. I'm feel that I'm on a time limit. And that clock is ticking pretty damn fast. Will I ever be anything more than damaged goods?
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